Roly-poly in the Wild (PART 2 OF 3)
I see. But your place in Yellowknife was far from his route, wasn't it?
You're right on, but Yellowknife is much closer to his final camp site than my hometown in Japan. Besides, I read a depressed young woman's desperate desire---something like a suicide note.
Anxiety, frustration,
and loneliness
2004/10/03 18:28
If I'm to live like this,
I'd rather die.
I've got a doner card.
If somebody needs a cornea, a heart or anything else,
please take any of my body parts.
I have no family members.
No one to rely on.
No one to consult with.
No one to report to.
by Renge
SOURCE: "Love and Loneliness"
『愛と孤独』
(August 31, 2011)
So, Kato, you thought Chris McCandless went into the wild to commit suicide, didn't you?
That's right. I really wanted to know why he went up into the north.
By the way, Kato, did you reply to her suicide note?
Yes, I did.
No kidding!
I'm dead serious. Those notes and replies were all in my blog.
My dear Renge,
If you say lonely, imagine yourself in the northen wilderness.
The temperature goes down to 42 degree below.
There is nobody around in the wilderness.
You could see the mysterious northern lights.
If you say lonely in the biggest city in Japan,
what would a soul in the wilderness say?
I lived in Yellowknife for nearly two years.
Every time I saw northern lights alone,
I felt somewhat lonely.
Whenever I walked from my place for five minutes,
the wilderness invited me into a desolate land.
Into desolation rather than loneliness.
When I walked into desolation, I felt I was on my own---free from all social shackles.
In any case, everyone lives alone.
You were born alone, and will die alone after all.
Why don't you come to see the northern lights?
The picture above looks tinted yellow.
The real ones shine like an oxidized silver curtain.
Mystical and fantastic!
I felt as if I would be sucked up into the eternal silver world.
Then I came out to Vancouver---a face-to-face world.
My dear Renge, if you don't like lonliness,
talk to somebody---your neighbor, your work buddy, or anyone.
If nobody, then talk to me. \(^Д^)/
When you stop talking, you increasingly become lonely.
In any case, don't think too deeply.
The sun always comes up after the night.
From time to time, I come to your blog.
Until then, goodbye.
(^Д^) ha, ha, ha, ha...
Kato (a.k.a Denman)
2004 09/04 00:00
SOURCE: "Love and Loneliness"
『愛と孤独』
(August 31, 2011)
Northern Lights at Yellowknife
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So, Renge didn't commit suicide, did she?
Oh no, she didn't. She is as smart and resourceful as Chris McCandless was. Fortunately, there are no poisonous plants around her place.
(To be followed)